Tuesday, February 23, 2010

The immaculate - 10

We had been neighbors for three years yet had hardly spoken to each other. After that, she had gone far off with her husband, and only later did we meet a couple of times by chance. The two of us - at an esplanade, the cinema-house, the mall. Today we happened to meet in front of the hairdresser’s, so close to the taste of roses, the smell of lavender and still-virgin touch. Everything was left unsaid, in a kind of suspended relief, an indescribable joy. Our encounters were a breed of temptation and confession, with definite risk crossing between our eyes. A risk with no name. A mutinous torrent looking for a name; and looking for itself.
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Monday, February 22, 2010

The immaculate - 9

The greyhound ran round the house, in a rage. Then a car suddenly turned on its headlights and sped off, in a flash. Who was that? The dog went on yelping and running round in the yard, into the bushes, by the swimming pool. I thought about going down but honestly, I was scared. The shutters remained ajar and the curtains had returned to the stillness of life’s anchors: rigidly slow and quiet under the spell of the night breeze, like open sails on mellow sea. There was an apparent calm, tarnished solely by the greyhound’s frenzy, which after some twenty minutes went to sit next to the cypress by the gate.
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Sunday, February 21, 2010

The immaculate - 8

Sure, but what if life ended tomorrow, what would we do? When? Now? And I found myself sputtering out nonsense. That they wanted us guzzling inertia, our ability to act and state ourselves, don’t you reckon? And she agreed, nodding her head in the distance (this Christmas spirit thing really works). A faint wink in her eye, the wonder of her hands and the way they opened out on the table top. And then, without notice, but in a liquid, slow voice, she twice repeated that we would sleep our just reward away until it was daytime once again, until it was nothingness all over again and we could simply skip the phrase, imagination, world, whatever. What would this lifeless world be, after all, tomorrow morning? But would we really sleep? How, I asked myself. And no one else.
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Saturday, February 20, 2010

The immaculate - 7

The huge greyhound was as still as a sphinx, staring at the shutters of that quivering window. The curtain shook in rare turbulence and after the flash – was it a photograph, a lantern, a fire extinguisher? – there was only a speedy commotion of tones on the faint curtain cloth, and it looked as if a giant TV screen was on in a suddenly darkened room. The poor dog yelped and yelped, head high and with pointy ears. I stayed on the balcony, wary, restless, trying to unravel movement in the neighbor’s front door, in the backyard, the other windows, even in the narrow marquise - but saw nothing, nothing at all. For a moment I forgot the hills, lost as they were in that obscure outline where darkness dilutes darkness.
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Friday, February 19, 2010

The immaculate - 6

We reached the coffee shop, sat in a kind of lobby and, maybe out of casual passion, I ended up asking her: what if life ended tomorrow, what would we do, now? And I can see her laughing and laughing without being able to discard an old bashfulness which consumed some of the fire in her gestures; laughing and somehow offering in that secret-sealed laugh the near sum of total surrender. It was barely a contention, more like an acrobatics of the inaccessible, a secret fearless art. She was herself in a way I had never seen before. And yet, very slowly, the meat-pie cracked in her mouth, invisible teeth chewed at the dough, lips dragging themselves with a fervent ardor that seemed to turn this Christmas Eve into a kind of D-Day. Some sort of challenge.
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Thursday, February 18, 2010

The immaculate - 5

When the greyhound ran out into the middle of the deserted street, I thought its owner must be near. But no, it broke into a whirl, with its huge Persian paws spread out in a tight ring of a race until a dog-sigh broke its stride and night’s calm wonder was able to creep in undisturbed. Out in the distance, the obscure and by now invisible hills; next to it, the eggy streetlight, wrapped up in mosquitoes and bizarre webs. And I remained stoically on the balcony, waiting for the phone call from America, standing guard on memories beyond confession, silent and prostrated under a moment of stillness. But in the house across the street, a blast of light went on and off between the shutters, in a close to nothing second. More a space between nothings, a now that flew by and back just like that. I looked again and the curtains were moving, as if someone were causing them to move. What the hell was going on?
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Wednesday, February 17, 2010

The immaculate - 4

She had slow, pilgrim eyes, whirling doom. She pretty much hovered in front of me, warning me about the cold - the cause of her shaking, she said - passing her fingers over her waist as if to pale out distance, fear, any forgetful languor. She remained before me so, leaning against the steps, maybe so as not to interrupt the human blob carrying itself along the shop windows and the sidewalk, and the swirl which seemed to surround the birth of baby Jesus - or was it the mythical baby of golden ages? I could hardly answer, I seemed hypnotized, crystallized in some unaccountable manner, yet ended up following her, step by step, to the nearest coffee shop.
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